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I know you dont like me,
Dont like the things I do.
The saddest part just might be,
that I dont like you too.
YOu think you know my story,
well maybe you did for a little while.
I guess thats the way it sometimes goes between a mother and a child.
All my life you've reminded me
how you struggle 9 long months.
Your achin back and your swollen feet
how you almost lost me once.
You say you gave up everything
all the dreams you had.
Told us kids were the only reason you stayed their with our dad
And you want me to cry for you
and you want me to feel the way you do
I'm sorry your life let you down but the fault it is not mine
Its not supposed to be like this between a mother and a child
YOu want me to just agree with everything you say
Call my dad the bad guy make him pay and pay and pay
ITs really not my business, it never was, or will ever be.
But I know no bodies perfect and thats countin you and me.
I dont remember all that happened,
mama I was just a kid.
But if it really was all that bad,
why do you wish I did?
You want me to cry for you
I'll never feel the way you
I'm sorry your life let you down but the fault it isnt not mine
Its not suppesed to feel like this between a mother and a child
Your my mother and I am your child.
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| I AM BACK!! ALMOST A MONTH LATER!! |
[15 Feb 2005|07:45pm] |
Well I have too much news to tell you all at once so I will tell you just a bit...
Cassie and Kris no longer live here.... they moved to Utah about 3 weeks ago.... I miss them but I think they need this... it is what they wanted so it has to be for hte best...
Steven and I are going strong we are roundin' the corner to 8 months together... :) He just got a new job at Mary Washington Hospital as a monitor tech. And is going back to school with me in the Summer!! :) :) The hours are going to suck at his new job but the pay and benefits double the hour problem!!!
Classes are great i should graduate this summer!!!!:)then i am transfering to Mary Washington... Ali this weekend I am writtin the essay!! :) i know i keep sayin that!!!! everything else is done though just need the essays!!! :)
Work.... it is work i am still in the copy center but Kevin has been talkin about movin me up again.... so only time will tell...
well thats the little tid bits... ttyl
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| hahah Long time since I have been online |
[19 Jan 2005|12:35pm] |
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I am sorry to all my friends who used to read this all the time to see what I was up to ... I havent been online in months so I havent updated this... dont be mad... I am on now though and I am not going to bore you with all the details of my life since the last time I updated because... lol I cant remember half the stuff... well right now it is snowing outside and classes for tonight have been cancelled.. I dont have to work today so I am lazin around the house finally with some time to myself and were do you fins me.. Vegged out in front of the TV all afternoon...I even bought this cool thing on TV today it will be here in 7-11 days for me to try out for an entire month.. if I dont like it all I have to do is return it after a month... lol Its all good though because I am dying to use it... It is a total body gym designed by a woman for a woman... it allows you to work all kinds of things mostly the lower abs.. butt.. inner thihs and the under part of your arms... it is so cool and it is going to help with my time problem!!! Did I mention that Dad has been redoing our entire house incuding remodeling our downstairs room and installed an enitre gym!! :) But that is his room full of MAN MACHINES!! :) LOL So now I have a woman machine.
I am moving out in 7 months!! :) I cant wait because I am tired of living here.. my sisters are major bitches.. trust me if you lived in my house you would want out.. which is why I am never online anymore... Because I am only home to sleep...
A few burnettes need to take some PMS pills and get some sleep... that or just have there vocal cords removed... :-) Either way will work I like the latter of the two but ya know.. cant always have your way!! :)
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| wow gotta catch you up!!! |
[20 Nov 2004|05:10pm] |
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Well the weekend after the beach house was Steven's Firefighter's Banquet for all my friends I havew lots of pics!!! Steven had white gloves and a hat.. the whole shabang!! :0 he looked so handsome!!! :) My dress was simiformal... thin straps black... the top was very simple... it criss crossed around my chest then fell along my waist!! The bottom was my favoite!!! It was at my thigh on one side and flowy then when it went to the other side it fell to my calf in a v shape!!! :) It was very nice and very comfy!! we didnt dance we sat and had dinner then went home and changed into some other clothes and went to a Bonfire!! :) It was okay lol we made out the whole time cause everyone there was drunk.. FIrefighters... if they are all together are going to be two things... ALCOHOL AND FIRE!! :) LOL even when it is hot outside they have fires!! :) I call them the crazy piros!!!:) :) :) :) But I had a great time!! :) Then sunday we went to a park in Stafford and at the water Steven asked me a very special question!! HE told me that he wanted to get me a promise ring... the promise being that one day he will replace it with an enagment ring!! I was shocked.. he told me that during Christmas we were going to go to the mall and I could pick out 5 rings.. ( 5 being our number!! ) then he will go back and pick his favorite one out of the 5... then I will get the ring in July when it is one year!! :) So I wont know which one he picked til then.... :) the second ring he gets me I told him I dont even want to know he is lookin for one!! I want it a complete surprize... he is so cute everyone in my family loves him and he told me that not only is he going to ask my dad to marry me but he is going to ask the whole family one on one!! :) Mom wants to know what he is going to do when he gets to Jenna who tells him NO because she doesnt want me to leave her.. LOL :) Well I gotta go I'll update more later.. Nothin interesting about work or school...
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| What a great vacation |
[09 Nov 2004|05:10pm] |
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I hated the idea of leaving Wocomico this past Sunday... I had a great time with Steven and his parents. I left Friday night around 4pm to follow his parents to their beach house. When we got there his mom made dinner!! It was really good!!! baked chicken mmmm :) then Steven and I put together this desk kinda thing for the kitchen!! That was a blast our first project together!! We work well together!!! LOL Well we fell asleep watchin TV ( Steven and I) then ended up going to our ouwn beds around 3 am... Sat morning Steven came in a woke me up :) It was a wonderful wake up call!!!! After I got out of the shower I went to find steven he was in the living room and we layed there until breakfast was ready... We all got dressed had breakfast then went out on the boat... I GOT SEA SICK omg it was soo windy and the boat was rockin like crazy... I was sooo Sick to my stomach .. but on a happy note( before and after it passed) I was enjoyin a great time talkin to his mom while the guys fished!!! :) No fish though it wasnt a good day... When we got back we had lunch then went into town... ( very small town) We got some movies and hung out a bit visting the different stores... like the christmas store... it was so sweet to watch Steven's dad and the way he treated steven's mom because Steven is the same way with me.. it was funny he was like we are going I am just sayin I dont want to go!! I thought it was so cute.. MY fav part of that day was when we watched the movie!! :) I think his mom really likes me.. We were watchin a movie I had already seen and she and I were talkin like I would talk with the chicas..:) It was so much fun!! Steven and I stayed up again that night later than his parents watchin CSI then Some other show then Polterguist ( I cant spell LOL).. well we fell asleep again this time just like the night before but this time I woke up to Steven jumping up... the TV had been irratating him in his sleep so he was asleep when he got up and turn the TV off... well when he came back ( I am now awake) he turns over and puts his back to me... I was like ok well if I am going to sleep alone I can do this in a comfy bed not on the floor...but I knew he was sleeping ( and he confermed that Sun) So I stayed but I didnt stay much onger because a feew minutes later Steven's mom calls his name... I thought I had seen someone Friday night but wasnt sure so Sat morning I asked Steven about it and he said he didnt remember anyone so on Sunday morning when I came upstairs he just nodded... Sunday mornign We went back on the boat and I caught 3 fish.. one by myself one that Mr. Cunningham started for me and one that Steven started for me... Mr. Cunningham said that I had to catch the first fish of the day b/c I had never caught one before... LOL I was like okay.. he said it is an ice breaker... I had a great time and it was nice weather to be out on the boat... no one wanted to leave.... UGh but to be home again sucks!! LOL back to work and back to school.. Tomorrow is Steven's 20th B-day and he had his interview for Stafford Fire department today which went very well.. the entire process has been going well.. I hope he gets it b/c then he will be paid for something he loves doing..:) Work is going great... well I dont want to type it all up sooo ask me about it later...
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| ONE MORE DAY |
[03 Nov 2004|02:40pm] |
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One more day until Steven and I will have been together for 4 months. I cant wait!!! :) We leave Friday after I get off work at 4 to go spend the entire weekend at his beach house!! What a great way to spend our anniversary!!! We are going on a fishing trip... He is takin me deep sea fishin.. which he says is nothin like the fishin we have been doin!!! :) So I am excited!! We are going to spend the first part of the night in each others arms on the couch then after we watch the sun rise we are going to go to our separate beds. I love going out there.. his parents are really nice and I dont feel wierd being out there with them... :) this will be my second time going. We went on a boat ride last time and we went water skiing and tubing... but this time it is going to be too cold to do that so we are going to stay abord and go fishin. I wonder if it is going to be as nice as it was last time... but the thing that is makin it soooooo exciting is.... that steven said to me I havent been very romantic lately... and I have just been waiting for the right time... I have a time in mind... I am like what are you talkin about but he wont tell me... but I have an idea!!! :O) It will either be this weekend at the house or next weekend at his banquet!! :-D I finally found a dress!!! :O) Question is... am I going to wear it!! LOL I like it alot but I am not sure it is too fancy for the occassion... :O) so0o I have a shirt and skirt too.... :) well off to class... one more week til his b-day and a little over a month til mine.
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| thats what ya get for tryin to be cute!!! |
[17 Oct 2004|10:32pm] |
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LOL ms. clumsy ashleigh desided to be cute after a day with her boyfriend in the woods.. walkin around explorin the woods well.. I decided to make a run for it and about half way up his backyard ( which is like 2 football fields) I hit a hole and fell flat on my face... I was rollin laughin so hard and so was he tell I felt the pain shoot up my leg... it hurt for a bit then stopped i finally stopped shakin and steven became his EMT.. he asked me to touch my foot to his hand in all directions moving my ankle to see if it was broken! Well I was able to move it more as the night went on... I love my FF/EMT.. he took care of me and he has been for the past week.. lol.... it is still swollen though cause I havent been doin what he said... I forget about it cause I am wearin pants everyday and it doesnt hurt.. well until my eyes see it at night... it is the size of a golfball on one side... ugh lol...
I miss the chicas!!!
Good news Good News.. I am the new copy center specialist!!!! Meaning I am incharge of the copy center now and I am a fulltime employee.. i get holidays off with pay a weeks paid vacation, a 3 dollor raise and I make my own schedule as well as all the other copy center associates!! Its kinda cool.. it is the step below manager!!I start November 1st.
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| today starts 4 months |
[06 Oct 2004|12:49pm] |
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I had such a great night last night. Steven took me to Carrabas an italian place in Central park to celebrate 3 months together!!! :) We then went to the firehouse said hey to some peeps then went to his house and he built me a camp fire in his back yard and we sat by the campfire... then when it got too cold to be outside we went inside and watched TV!! The campfire was so romantic and we talked about all sorts of things that brought us closer together!! We have so many plans!!! :) I cant wait!! He is almost 20!! ONLY one more month!!! :) Then I will be 20!!! :) Yeah... :) Well he loves me haha and he looks after me.. I couldnt ask for more!! :) Everyone that knows him likes him... :) and he is so amazing in more than one way!!:) Muah to my bald sexy fireman!!
On another note.. I miss the chicas like crazy!!! :(
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| ONLY MONTHS AWAY |
[30 Sep 2004|07:32pm] |
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So many things I want to tell you.. so many things I need to say... but when I see you my mind goes blank and all thoughts float away. I love you with every inch of my heart and you know that you hold my every breath in your hands.
Only a few more months then all our dreams will come true... :) I cant wait!! Promise... promise we will go to Long Island?? I was sooo excited when you said that Wednesday!! I can't wait. I love that when I say something it is as if it is burned into your brain... you never forget anything!!! :) I wonder what you were doing in Stafford Market Place today... the fact that u wouldnt tell me is drivin me o so crazy!! I had a great night!!! Even at the end of the night... Things are beginin to change!!! Was that an arguement or just some hurt feelings??? And whatever you were doing does it have anything to do with... umm the question you ask me in Spotsy???? :) So I think I figured out Josh and your code... :) Well back to my short story on BRadford, Bradstreet and Sewall!! Well I mean back to begining it!
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[26 Sep 2004|10:29am] |
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Wow has it been that long already!! Time is flyin by.. it is almost October and the means almost time for this semster to be over... But the main thing that has flown by is 3 months!!! :) next Tuesday will be 3 months.. it seems like we just met last week!! :) I havew almost know Steven and entire year!! :-D Sorry if I talk about him a lot!! :) Anyways
Class is going no where I swear I am still in high school.. nothing is hard I can do an paper 10 minutes before class starts and make an A that is how easy it is... Sometimes I envy the peeps who are always studying... But then again NAH!! :) Work is going steady though... Shannon is leaving before Dec so I might step up and become the lead of the department... Taana said that she doesnt see why not and if I get it then that means a 3 dollor raise and a 9-5 job!!! :) Plus I will be incharge of the copy center!!! :) But I will change to night school.. which is okay with me!! Sorry I haevnt posted in forever nor have I been online.. being in school and workin plus having a romantic life is very time consuming!! :) BUt I miss talkin to you guys LOVE YOU!! MUAH Call me sometime I miss you chicas!!!
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| I AM ALIVE!! |
[20 Sep 2004|01:34pm] |
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LOL I think I have used that one before!! But it is true.. I am updating for the few people that actual read my journal!! They have commented on my failed attempts to add any of my new recent details to my extra ORDINARY life!! LOL Well Steven and I are going strong!! Shhh dont tell neone but we are gettin married!! :) He hasnt asked me YET but I hope sometime in a year or so he will!! ( we have already talked about it!! ) He is my hero literally LOL I got my car keys stuck in my car last friday before I headed off to JMU with Ali the worst part the car was running on the gas I just filled for the weekend!! All I had was my phone thank God.. dont ask why I ended up outside my running car with the doors locked.. to make it short was on the phone with ali got pissed at lady in DRIVE THRU ATM parked the wrong direction not even using the ATM holdin up the line.. so I get out and walk through the drive through ATM Locking my keys in the car with it running!!! well after 3 failed attempts to get ahold of my parents callin work to let them know I was going to be late from my break I call my HOT Sexy fireman who takes off from work to come and rescue me with his kit from the firehouse!! I paid him later LOL ;) I love ya'll I'll post the rest later gotta get to work BYE!!
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| New turned to old |
[24 Aug 2004|09:54pm] |
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YOu asked me the other day when it is no longer considered NEW.... I think today was the day... I dunno if that is a good thing. I feel like I want to be right next to you but the other half of me doesnt... All the feelings are their but doubt is starting to take over... that is what I was thinkin about... I just couldnt tell you that on the phone. I think I hurt you as I said goodbye and for that I am sorry...
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| Yeah for an awesome Weekend |
[24 Aug 2004|08:45am] |
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I went to Richmond Sunday to see the Richmond braves with Steven, His parents, their friends, their son and hie gurlfriend of 4 years... Well the game was rained out because there was water on the field... even though it was a vry nice day so we went to Maggionos at Italian restarunt... I loved it and I dont like Italian food...but now I do... mm and they had an amazing cheese cake mmmmmmmm it was whipped and melted in your mouth!!! It was so amazing and I had a great time. Then we walked around this mall that is outside not inside.... It was cool... there are so many inside jokes and we were the only couple in the group of couples holdin hands and steven put his arm around me at lunch... It was soo nice lol... blame it on my girlie wants LOL...
But we are going to his parents beach house again this weekend after I get off work Sat night... and spendin the night again... we are going back to the place where we first said I love you in the rain... were we first fell alseep in each others arms... I am so excited!! :) It isnt supposed to rain all day like it did last time so we are going to be on the boat most of the time... water skiing and tubbing... no jelly fish this time his dad said that the water is too rough where we are going... they are to fragile to be out there with the waves... but now I am freaked about what lurks below!! LOL AHHHHH Gotta get ready for work!
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| YEAH YEAH YEAH |
[22 Aug 2004|08:06am] |
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Last night was an AWESOME TOTALLY AMAZING concert!! AHHHH I called ali when John Meyer came on and sang one of my fav songs... I was there for MAroon 5 though AHH they opened for JOhn!!! :) LOL They were sooo awesome Jenn's littel sis was next to me with her friend Sarah and they were dancin and screamin it was sooo much fun... when John was on stage he motion to a gurl who was taken his pic.. he motioned for her to throw it up at him which she did and he took like 5 pics of different poses!! :) The crowd was laughin!! :) He did it during one of the music breaks in a song... I didnt know alot of his songs that he played but he finally towards the end played my FAV!!! YOUR BODY IS A WONDERLAND!! I love that song AHHH :) But my fav marroon 5 song is She will be loved, Harder to breath,If I fell!!! :) AHhh I bought the CD and am listen to it right now!! :) Thank you Jenn for inviting me to go with you I had a blast!!! :)
I am going to the Richmond Braves game today in like... umm ahh I gotta go lol :) I am going with Steven and his parents!! :) Gotta run Bye!! Love ya
Ash
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[15 Aug 2004|03:24pm] |
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LOL I had a great weekend!! We def need to make that a new tradition!! :)... We all need to double date again ... Ali call me later about it!! :)
Havent posted in forever been busy with work... and a certain SOS....lol :) Classes start next week... which I am excited to get my last year til I have my Associates out of the way but I am not excited about starting classes... the homework.
LOL I like Yeller... I think she is soo cute!!! :O) Dont forget to talk to her about what you have to talk to her about... ;-) LOL Thanks for today I swear one day we will finish that movie lol that is twice now that we have gone to sleep... the movie is great... we need to plan it on a time when we arent exusted... but then again when are we not:) LOL Muah THANK YOU... I love sleepin in your arms... even though we were woken up by Yeller!! :O) Cant wait til tomorrow!!! :) Lunch with my bald handsome firefighter!!!
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| Today is a month! |
[04 Aug 2004|11:59am] |
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Whoa one whole month!! :) We have come along way in a month! :) I can't wait to hang out tonight...
HAha Today at work was a blast we have this new girl that is takin over Jenn's place when she goes back to Tech.. I am still debating if we are going to be able to work together b.c as of right now I want to box her... she thinks she knows everything while we are stilll tryin to teach her. Oh well we dont think she is going to last very long.. but if she steps on my toes one more time we are going to box... :-D
Hey to all my Stafford Friends how far did the power outage go???? It went all the way to work and even here at my house.. all of Garisonville was out of lights ( street lights) when the lights went out we lost air at work so by this afternoon it was so hot you started to sweat standing still... I had the fan though that we used to cool the machines off.. the copy center was the hotest due to the machines all going.. it is always hot in there.. Brian is leaving this Sat... it is going to suck.. whos ass are we going to look at all day?? Just jokin... we are going to miss him though... we thought he was going to be a quiet guy and not talk to us unless we needed something but lol he is a huge jokester!!! :) Now we are gettin drill Sr. Kevin.. he used to be the copy center main guy at District but that was something he was doin til they got the job filled.. now he is back to his normal job as District manager and he is gettin moved to our store... Copy center is in the main focus... AHHHHHH :) Shannon says he yells...:( AHHH If he yells at me I might cry lol..not!!
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| An the shoe falls.... |
[03 Aug 2004|12:36pm] |
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We've had alot of firsts... I just wished this one wasnt so soon... glad it turned out okay... it had to happen sooner or later! ;) Two more days :-D then a lil over a week til we go to the game!! :) Cant wait.. dont ya think it is funny we are going to the game played by the peeps who soon go to MY team... lol GO BRAVES!!!! :)
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| The greatest thing in life is to love and be loved in return!! |
[31 Jul 2004|02:01pm] |
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I am so in love with Steven.. he is the most amazing boyfriend I have every had... make that most amazing man I have evre met. we clicked right away and I feel amazing when I am with him.. my friends are in love with him too!! (not the same way as I am) My mom is like I am not going to tell you that I like him because then you would have to dump him.... Hahha ...I just wanted to say that I LOVE STEVEN CUNNINGHAM!!! AND HE LOVES ME!!! HE put this in his profile!!
Ashleigh Peterson is all mine!!!!
Love you Ashleigh :-*
Havin a great Ali/ Ash weekend we had a lot to catch up on!!! :-D
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